I am, simply, a praying mother. I am, simply, a praying wife.
I have known that I was born to serve the Lord. I knew that life on earth was going to be difficult at a young age. I realized, very young, that I had a purpose in life. The only thing that I did not know, was what that purpose was.
I am not perfect, but I strive to be. And I fail miserably every single day at it. I fail at life on a daily basis trying to be Christ-like, my life is almost a comedy show.
Married, divorced and married again. Between my husband and I, we have so many kids, our house is a daily rerun of the Cosby Show. We have fun. We love to joke around and sarcasm is our second language.
Our daughters are princesses and our son is our prince. Yes, that’s right- five girls and one boy. And throw in a set of twins in there somewhere and a baby with a chronic illness and we have our amazingly blessed life.
I am very real. I tell it like it is. I tell “it” because “it” is my life. I try to share my deepest feelings and share my greatest victories. I am a natural born leader and I like being in charge. But I am incredibly insecure and have had my bouts of depression and anxiety. I know where my life is going to end up, and that our true home is Heaven.
I have recently become a NICU mom and, oh, how my life has changed. To watch and wait and hope and pray that our baby would survive, was literally torture. That’s what the NICU life felt like for me. For five months, it felt like I was being tortured. And now, a year out of the NICU, I am still haunted by flashbacks and the ghostly memory of the hospital. We walk through these same halls almost everyday because of our child’s illness. And each time, the sights, the sounds and even the smell, take me back to our NICU time.
From NICU mom to special needs mom. From dance mom to theater and ASB mom.
I am me.
I dreamed of one day having a successful organization at our children’s hospital to help other families in our situation. I had visions of our successes and I can’t wait for the future. Join along and read my journey to becoming what God has planned for me.
To God be the Glory.