Don’t Stop. Can’t Stop!
Written on JULY 16, 2015
This past year, I have traveled and coasted through life quite erratically. Some days went really fast, some days went really slow and some days were just a huge blur.
I have felt like I have been so busy with EVERYTHING. Which, for me, is GOOD! I love that life is busy. I love being on the go. I love doing this and that and working and feeling like I am needed…like I am important. That works for me. I do a lot of work from home, over the phone and on my laptop. That’s what I need because of Matthew. In the mornings is when I get up and go and run my errands if I need to. Or I sit at my computer and do homework, respond to emails, check out all of social media and sip on my hot coffee in peace.
We have been waiting patiently for a surgery date for Matthew. He needs to get a total replacement of his catheter. It is major surgery for him. It will be his 9th surgery. We had been waiting for him to be healthy enough and stable enough to have the surgery. And now he is. He is scheduled for surgery in two weeks.
The second I was told about his surgery, my life has felt so awkward. The same week we got the surgery scheduled, The Ronald McDonald House article came out, we presented the NICU Care Packages, the twins birthday celebration at the hospital, all kinds if plans with church, the kids, family stuff planned…. but the Lord has been telling me I need to be still. “Be still, and know that I am God.” –
I was telling a friend of mine how I feel like my life is going a million miles a minute, but everything around me is going in slow motion. I was telling how I didn’t know what that means. How am I the one moving fast but my world is going so slow?
That is where that scripture comes in…. Be Still. And I have been praying and asking God to Lead Me. Tell me what to do… tell me how to be… what should I do??
So that is what I will do. I am going to take a mini-break from everything. And by mini-break I mean a week break…lol. I am starting a new class the week Matthew has surgery. I have a speaking engagement and a meeting with a celebrity to help promote Made For A Miracle at the end of July. So until then, I will be concentrating on Matthew. These next two weeks are going to be crucial. And I need to be prayed up and prepared.
I KNOW once Matthew is finished with surgery and home and healed, life will be a lot more enjoyable.
I am trying to sit and write a post about this past year… but I just can’t find the words. I think it would be important for me to really reflect on it.
I ask that you all say a prayer for Matthew. For me… our family. This surgery coming up is huge. Although I know I have nothing to worry about…. my baby is having surgery. Just keep him in your prayers.
Thank you all so so much.